Tuesday, January 26, 2010


I'll be away from Wed-Thur! Will be meeting my supplier (overseas) to discuss some stuff! Will be back on Fri to send out all outstanding packages, settle refunds as well as reply all the unreplied e-mails.


My new favourite Youtube singer!

p.s Yowwww can you quickly get your covers done~~~ so the world can hear you? Hahaha.


Have ya'll caught Hachi?

If you haven't go watch it!! Beautiful story that'll tug at your heartstrings. If Marley & Me made you cry, this one will surely make you cry 10 times more. I didnt think of watching it until C briefly told me what it was about...

It's about the loyalty of a dog. The dog walked his owner to the train station in the morning and then picked him up from the train station at evening time everyday. Then there was this one day, his owner never came back cus he died of a heart attack. However, he still faithfully waited at the same spot at the same time everyday for 9 years till he died. Read more (here).

Oh! Did i not mention? 'm having 2nd thoughts about driving...ever since my 3rd practical lesson. Have a very bad feeling. Like what everyone says, i'll prolly kill whoever who's in my car? Y'know up till today, I cannot even brake properly!! So much for being so enthu when it came to passing my theory. The theory part was supposed to be the hardest part of it no?? At least i thought it'll be since I'm such a "hands on" person?

Ugh....but i shan't give up cus i really want to drive a pink car. If you've been reading my blog since i started, the following pictures would be familiar as hell cus this is like the 3/4th time posting about it! IT'S BEEN MY DREAM SINCE 14!

Previously it was about how i can't wait to get my license~ Now...when i can get it already...SIGH. As long as it's a beetle and pink - any shade of pink! I don't care if the car is lousy or what!

I know if i don't get a driving license i'll NEVER get to get it...don't think my boyfriend would wanna drive this just for me? Hmm....or maybe he would...? ;) HAHA.

Ok maybe it's too soon to give up....imma go book my next lesson. Shall decide after that.

p.s i'm SO sick and tired of explaining myself. even if i do, people will still make their own fucking assumptions. will prove to those who listen & to those who still want to talk shit, go ahead. i don't live to please the world. believe i've said my piece, taken the blame and acted responsibility for what's not entirely caused by me. apologised umpteen times and did all i can to resolve the mess. plus, i wouldn't last this long if i've been cheating my way up. think about it.

Thursday, January 21, 2010


All along i thought i was strong and would never shed a single tear over it anymore, since I've found another, and so have you but couldn't hold back those tears when i saw a post that wasn't mine at the top.

Oh well but....Life goes on!

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But its killing me to see you go after all this time.

Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin like the end of a sad movie,
Its the kinda ending you dont really wanna see.
Cause its tragedy and itll only bring you down,
Now I dont know what to be without you around.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,
Without you,
But I have to,
Without you,
But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesnt work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,
Without you,
But I have to,
Without you,
But I have to.

Its two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know its not easy,
Easy for me.
Its two a.m.
Feelin like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this aint easy,
Easy for me.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.


I cant,
Without you,
But I have to,
Without you,
But I have to.

Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)

In My Head

Chill out guys.


I wasn't serious when i said i want to be a model
because I'm not cut out for modeling and i'm super aware! If i was, i wouldn't be doing what i'm doing now. Why can't i just let my imagination run wild? You know....Dream the Impossible? I was living a day as a model and merely sharing my thoughts about it if it was something i did for a living.

Plus if i REALLY want to do it despite not having what it takes to be one, i wouldn't have so many tattoos! It's not that you can't have tattoos if you wanna be a model but it should be at places that can be covered - Singapore is such a conservative country! I wouldn't want to step into an industry having so much flaws~ Especially not now when i'm happy drowning myself in clothes!

Here are some pictures from the HK Trip with C & S! Kinda late cus the pictures weren't from my camera.

And today...

Just came back from Food Tasting for an Advertorial! The pictures are making me drool (too bad i cant post it till my advertorial date!). Yum tum tum....

Anyhoooooooooows, yesterday i met up with A to talk about life over coffee. I feel so much better after that talk. Looking at life from a different angle now! MUCH MORE POSITIVE ABOUT IT! She's someone who's been through more shit than me and no one understands the hell i'm going through better than she does. So nice to have someone honest pointing out the things that i'm doing wrong and showing me the right way. The whole thing summed up into this....

In order for me to be successful, i must do everything on my own and not rely/trust anyone - regardless how tired/lazy i am. The more work i do on my own, the more successful i'll be. By that it means doing everything from designing the clothes, updating of web store, replying of emails, checking of stocks, doing the accounts, packing and mailing of goods has to be done SINGLE HANDEDLY, by Me. Like how i used to do it. Back then everything went smoooooooooothly. It's crazy shit load of work to be done by one person but i know i can do it (been there, done that!)! Not many people can be committed to doing it their own...but at the end of it, it's worth it. Success doesn't come easy.

"Success is going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm." - Winston Churchill

Lastly, I thank god for everyone who's concerned! Didn't expect myself to receive so many phone calls & text messages from friends asking if i needed their help. Touched & Thankful. Love ya'll TONS.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Black and Whites

Finally blogging from my laptop!

The past few day 've been working from my iphone.

So i guess after everything. THE BEST SOLUTION IS TO DO ALL THE ONLINE WORK ON MY OWN. Yes it's definitely going to be stressful and tiring but nothing beats doing it on my own. Of course with some help from my favourite staff Sarah and Germs - when i'm overseas.

I thought when i employ someone, i'd be able to just sit back, relax and wait for $ to come to me but y'know what? THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN. Maybe not until i find someone reliable. BUT IM SCARED ALREADY. Enough shit happened when i took that risk.

Anyway, last week i went for my first photoshoot! Ok first "PROFESSIONAL" photoshoot. I took 6 hours for like 4 themes? Then i realised how tough modeling is! IT'S MORE THAN JUST HAVING A PRETTY FACE.

I had so much fun during the shoot i had thoughts about doing modeling as a career. Cus you see, you don't need to be very pretty! In my opinion, you just need to know how to pose and have a good body? Which i can work on if i really want to be one? Oh and the tattoos...it can always be photoshopped away? Or it'll be good if a client wants a different look!

p.s these are the unedited shots in B&W.

But that day, I found my bad angles and my good ones. A lot of bad ones - so many i really felt so ugly after that. :(:( I wished i was prettier so i'd be more confident about doing it as a job. Those models who aren't very pretty are confident. Which is something i always wanted to be but it's not easy to change my mindset. Especially living18 years wishing i was pretty.

It's ironic how i feel ugly but love taking pictures. IT IS TRUE THOUGH because i can look cute/pretty in pictures (cus it's deceiving)! In real life, i just feel like hiding my face whenever someone looks me in the eye. I don't like when people look at my face, just feel uglier cus they can see EVERYTHING. Unlike pictures...it's flat. I can adjust brightness to make me look fairer, cover up with a tool if i have blemishes, pores aren't visible at all in pictures, can turn my head to the side to make my fat cheeks not so obvious.....yknow all that WHICH I CAN'T DO IN REAL LIFE.

Sometimes i wish i lived behind my computer all my life.

But this is where CONFIDENCE HAS TO COME IN.......

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Better in time

Been so tired and sick lately and not getting any better. Sigh. Sorry for the lack of pictures...hardly hve anything interesting going on in my life now. The best thing that's happening is having a boyfriend there for me 24/7 to keep me sane. The amount of stress is driving me absolutely insane!

But everything's gonna be alright! I know it will:) I'll be doing my advertorial later and post it tonight! Together with a couple of pictures of me from a photoshoot last week! Kinda like my first professional studio shoot? Yknow with all that posing etc...hahahaha. More about it tonight!

Friday, January 15, 2010

And so...

I'm not going to accept or bother reading anymore comments of ppl trying to bring me down. Worse, asking me to give up on the online store.

Cus today I discovered the problem. It's not that my staff hasn't been doing their job. I four a pile of shipment stickers lying under the table from another staff and my new staff wasn't aware. Therefore resulting in tons of stuff not sent out. It's kinda like a case of miscommunication cus I told the other staff to ship out those but she thought she only needed to do the stickers & left it underneath. Hmm so like ppl who think I employ bad staff and am not training them, guess it's wrong.

Shan't defend myself anymore and will do the best I can to resolve te shit now. Am pretty sure if it wasn't for this miscommunication, this wouldn't even happen? I guess my new staff didn't reply some ppl cus she too thought it's alr been mailed. She shouldve replied though but this has alr been solved!

Oh well time can't be turned back so yeah.

Anyhowz, tmr my office (the plaza, park royal hotel beach road #04-133) will be open as I'll be selling my preloved apparels! My closet is soooo full I have to do this. Still overflowing with clothes so if tomorrow's sale goes well I'll do another next week~

& for those who wna come down to settle ur matters, feel free to do so. If not, email me at tastelikekisses_@hotmail.com!

P.s I'm sad enough this has to happen. For the haters, Pls stop being mean and leaving nasty comments ESP not now...am not having the best time of my life. Would appreciate it a lot! You can be mean all u want once I get over this period, I'll entertain u. No mood for that now! I

Wish i was a student

The stress is killing me. Why must everything happen at a go!

Thankful for the concerned people out there who sent me e-mails to comfort me. Definitely needed some of that after reading so many negative remarks.

I'm in a situation where i've to take the blame for something not done by me cus it's my online store & now, i'm left to resolve matters not caused by me.

I'm sorry Don, you've to face stress like this. Don's my new staff replying e-mails and she took over at the end of Dec. She's new and very unfamiliar with the insides of an online store therefore being rather slow in replies. Slowly the e-mails piled up and now it's pretty hard for her to manage everything on her own. Because i don't wish to have any more issues till everything is resolved, the online store has been temporary closed till 1 FEB 2010! That means no income for me for half a month. YOU'VE NO IDEA HOW STRESSFUL THAT'S GONNA BE.

Meanwhile, i'll put all the stocks from the online store at my shop at Far East Plaza #04-133! Do pay a visit if you can. Everything's going at $27, that's about the online price so yup hopefully i'll be able to survive on the earnings from the boutique alone.

It's not easy. Really. Cus the rental at F.E.P is effing high, the house to pay for, the office and the wages... omg shall not list it out here. I dare not think about it. All i can do is pray and trust god to help me with this.

I can't help but to blog about it not asking for sympathy but some understanding! People think i'm just being an unreasonable bitch by asking my customers who've problems to come look for me instead of me contacting them personally but like....how am i suppose to know who received and who hasn't? So they only way is for them to inform me via email tastelikekisses_@hotmail.com or meet me on Saturday at my office since i'll be there? I really don't see what's so wrong about it! Do you think i don't want happy customers? Do you think i deliberately want to provide bad customer service (when right from the start, i feel that's like the most important thing in a business)?

But then again, a customer is always right. That's why i said, i've to take the blame no matter what.

All i can ask for is a little more understanding? I don't want things to end up so messy and bad. I want to turn back time and get the clean reputation my brand had.

Well...business is unpredictable. It all started when i started hiring staff. Nothing beats doing everything on my own....but it really isn't possible now that it has grown and i definitely need more manpower. I do hope Don enjoys her job in time to come despite a bad start and will be able to get used to it.

Sometimes, I ADMIRE THE LIFE OF A STUDENT. But then again, i love my business. It's my dream. My goal is to expand overseas in about a year or 2.



Thursday, January 14, 2010

Sick & Tired

I was in love and happy just days ago...but now...

I'm just filled with disappointment.

I'm sick, i've been lying in bed since last night...haven't taken a bite for almost 2 1/2 days, left the door unlocked hoping & waiting for you to bring Breakfast/Lunch/Dinner and feed me in bed.

It's 8.30pm.

I got nothing.

Still lying down with an empty stomach.

Feeling as sick as ever.

This isn't love.

Clearing my exploding wardrobe!

Hey all! I'll be holding a sale at my office on SATURDAY, 16 JANUARY!

Decided to clear my bursting wardrobe!! FINALLY~~~~

Things will be going from $7-$20! LOTSA GREAT DEALS. TONS OF TOPSHOP & F21 LOOTS!



The Plaza, Beach Road
It is between Park Royal Hotel & The Furniture Mall.

Nearest MRT station is BUGIS.

It's extremely near Haji Lane, opposite the famous Blanco Prawn Mee!

Sale starts at 1pm...ends at 10pm.


p.s for those who have outstanding orders unreceived/mails unreplied, i'll be there on that day to CLEAR ALL THE ISSUES so do come down especially if you've been waiting for a long time! it's hard for me to track everyone's orders when i'm not the one replying the mails but my staff is... :( therefore i need u to inform me. Hopefully i'll be able to get everything resolved and back on track after this! ALL U ANGRY PEOPLE CAN COME SCREAM UR HEADS OUT AT ME THAT DAY TOO!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

From the Shopaholics

"Shopping is better than sex. If you're not satisfied after shopping you can make an exchange for something you really like."
- Adrienne Gusoff

"I like my money right where I can see it: hanging in my closet. "
- Carrie from Sex and the City

"Too many people spend money they haven't earned, to buy things they don't want, to impress people they don't like."
- Will Rogers

"Whoever said money can't buy happiness simply didn't know where to go shopping."
- Bo Derek

I can't agree more. :)

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

The Sound of Happiness

"I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you."

It does feels good to be happy & in love once again. I guess it's true when they say there'll always be sunshine after the rain. All that pain i went through to get over D, i don't wanna repeat that cycle again. Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful. I'm scared but life's full of risks. Don't take it and you'll end up with nothing. If i keep waiting and lying to myself that D loves me, i'm only wasting my time & will never be happy remaining like that.

Read my past posts, almost a year of being depressed, don't think 2010 should be anything like that. New year, new boy lah? Hahaha.

After all that's life...it's full of ups and downs. It's what makes life - Life.

LOVE:"We think about it, Sing about it, Dream about it & Loose sleep worrying about it. When we don't know we have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear loosing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain. But we don't know which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define && IMPOSSIBLE to live without."


Meet Donna's Carebear...


.......makes my Colorful Friend (as seen below) look like a complete FREAK. NONE of my bears in my mini Carebear collection look as good. I NEED THE WHITE BEAR!!!!!!!! :'(

Monday, January 11, 2010

Results, results

I've been so busy lately i hardly have any time to blog! So anyway, i've hired a new staff to do the e-mails so i'd have more time to do my own stuff but looks like it isn't an excellent idea cus now, my personal e-mail has been bombarded with angry customers! Do give her till Tue to reply your e-mails k? She's new! Now we have about 3-4 staff in the office to make things much faster so don't worry about not getting your items promptly anymore cus you will (unless stated that it's a backorder...?). Please note that weekends aren't working days therefore she will only reply today, Monday!

Tonight @ 7pm, i'll be updating the webstore with new apparels so do check 'em out!

I've some more pictures from the Hong Kong trip but i'll probably upload them when i'm more free tomorrow.

Now i shall get some work done and then accompany a few to collect their O Level results! Btw, good luck all. :)

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Hong Kong Trip with The Boy

Not exactly a super fun trip because i came here with very little cash which means NO SHOPPING FOR ME! :( A big fat waste, really. But SELF-CONTROL!!!!!! I've to do lotsa business planning when i'm back so yes....

Moreover, the aim was to come here to Destress. Spending money would mean addition stress when i check my bank account when i'm back.

I'll just blog with pictures! Didn't really bother about the street names and everything so i can't tell ya'll where to shop. There isn't many places with cheap shopping though? Hmm...wait i don't know...cus the boys just care about brands, brands & brands. Oh but the shops that do resale of branded bags are AWESOME. They've my dream Balenciaga & Hermes bags! I know it's only Balenciaga but sorry man, ain't no richie rich spoilt brat. :(

K so anyway! I'm living at YMCA hotel at Tsim Sha Tsui which is quite an awesome location to be in~ So near the shopping malls, all branded goods, so yeah....but great for window shopping! :)

Meet my Colorful Friend! Hahaha. Kinda in love with soft toys now. Particularly Carebears. & Hello Kitty. I know right...quite act cute and all hahaha but it makes me happy so who cares!

We're here with Sheen!

Loving uh this picture.

Mario princess Sheen got for me from the turn turn machine! I love the turn turn machines! The one you turn and get a ball with a mini toy inside machine? Yeah that.

Oh today's the 4th day and we spent the entire day at Ocean Park! Super duper fun!

The Chicken Cassidy won!


Gay Tourist

So wanted this but they think it's ugly...:(

Then got this headband with 2 Sheen Lookalikes on it. Resembles him? Haha

Sheen got me a Kitty ring! He found the turn turn machine....about HK$5 a ring and i ended up getting 4! Made the boys wear 1 each. Got them some attention from at Bottega staff who squealed when she saw the ring the boys were wearing hahaha.

That's all! Quite relaxed already~~~ sooooo ready to go back and start working my ass off!!!!! So much to do....feeling quite eff-ed up for not being able to complete everything b4 heading for the trip...but the trip was SO SUDDEN. Stupid C...but i'm happier now. Though shit did happen during the trip. Think i cried like everyday i think? No wait....i really did. Fucking baby. Ha. But really felt so helpless cus i was so faraway from everything!! Oh well......tomorrow will be good!!!!!!! IT BETTER BE!

I'm going to take a bubble bath now! Bought some hello kitty bubble bath soap from H&M. DID I MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVE H&M!!!!!! Better than F21 hands down. Sigh~ Singapore NEEDS H&M!

SO NEED TO EXERCISE WHEN I RETURN. Can't stand my face. My complexion is sooooo dry too. AHHHH AM GOING BACK AN UGLIER ME. :(