Ramen

It's times like this that makes me realise how many strangers out there care and that i'm not alone. Still, i can't seem to put into action what people advice me to. It's not that i don't want to. I've tried. Still am trying. I just can't do it!!! :( Well i thank you all for the heartwarming comments and it does make me feel a tad better knowing that so many ppl care and hope to see me happy again. I want to be okay. I will be okay.

I tweeted a few months back about having some awesome ramen with J. I had the butter ramen and it was so good! Best place for ramen in Singapore! I'm scared to know the about of calories in just that bowl though. Don't wanna know either!

So the day before yesterday i met S & M fo dinner and we headed to the same place.


A lot of people walk up to her and ask her if she's Felicia Chin. Lol. Look like right!


She doesn't like taking picx though.










This time i tried the kimchi ramen! I didn't want the butter ramen cus there's no chilli and even though it's damn good, it's not THAT good without chilli. They dont have chilli padi there, only chilli powder which isn't spicy. I LOVE CHILLI I LOVE CHILLI I LOVE CHILLI.


You have to try this egg thing! It's really wet inside (ok this sounds so wrong, im so bad at describing my food - that explains why i'm not a full-time food blogger) - so juicy. I dont know if it's oil or what....i really think it's oil but anyway, every bite is so good.


And this pork! Yummy yummy sauce.


Doesn't look & feel like you're in Singapore when you're in this tiny little place.

Usually very packed during dinner time everyday so go around like 5ish or 9ish? The place is really small.

Ken Ramen House
At Orchard Plaza but outside.
Exit Cuppage Plaza's entrance and cross the road, you'll see a prata shop and this Ah Ming's zi cha place (which sux btw).

Just did a research on the best ramen you can find in Singapore.

Sapporo Ramen Miharu
1 Nanson Road

The Gallery Hotel #01-11

Ramen Santouka

6 Eu Tong Sen Street

Central #02-76

Marutama Ramen

Central #03-90/91

Gonna go try it soon! If you've tried any of the above, share your experience!

After my dinner i met DX and Fendi for karaoke at KBOX (Cine). So cheap on weekdays! Like $8/person + one free drink! All the way till 6am! I like the *scape outlet much more though but well budget budget.

Some slut pose lol.








Into it.

Haven't really slept for 3 days. It's like 3 hours a day. I hate this. I'm always so lethargic and i look sooooo bad when i'm out. What makes it worse is i stuff myself with food for energy the entire day. OR i eat till i'm so full and take a nap. My treatments at Beauti Instict for me to achieve a slimmer face are all wasted....can you imagine how chubby i'll be if i don't even do the treatment?! Can't the food just go to my boobs....or somewhere else NOT MY FACE!

Really in need of good sleep. Sleeping pills, sleeping pills.

The Ex

Y'know, i should've seen this coming...

I'm like this crazy psycho monster even i scare myself.

BUT I FUCKING HATE MY EX BOYFRIEND SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

How can anyone try so hard to be part of your life and then after that leave you JUST LIKE THAT?! Y'know i really didn't want to get into a relationship after D. I was so scared i'd go back to the super depressed days. The days i cant eat. The days i think about dying all the time. The days i sleep with a damp pillow. I hated that period and never wanted to go back to those days. Enter C. Someone who was madly in love even before he knew me. It was funny hearing all the stories from his friends and family. Well maybe he can make me happy again...i thought. He was very understanding, he really tolerated a lot during the dating period. I warned him about my BPD and all. He said he was okay. I thought he was cus he never got angry and always tried to calm me down. I loved him so much & well i thought he did too.

Then, there was this period, we just kept quarreling & he stopped giving in. I got really many and initiated a break up. He agreed. Like without hesitating. Which did scare me. I wanted him back. I BEGGED. l know i said "break up" out of anger. I always say things i dont mean when i'm angry, I JUST CANT HELP IT!!!! BUT HE WAS ALL "NO NO NO". He gave me all sorts of crap. "Wo bu pei (I dont think i'm good enough for you)", "I just want to be left alone now", "I want to use this time to concentrate on school"....AY ALL THAT SHIT. Which i stupidly believed.

Why i hate him so much is prolly because he lied. I dont need u give me a million untrue reasons for a break up. If you can't handle me, SAY YOU CAN'T. If you want to enjoy single hood cus you're still young, TELL ME? WHY LET ME SEE YOU WITH ALL THIS GIRLS RIGHT?! I mean you wanna play, yeah go ahead, but don't tell me all the girls throw themselves at you and it's not your fault blah blah?! Make me hate the girls for nothing.

I really went crazy. I texted him nasty stuff. OK I WAS A TOTAL BITCH. I CANNOT CONTROL I SWEARRRRR. A lot of people tried talking to me....and i would be okay for a day or two. Then unknowingly, i'd go crazy again.

It's been 4 months....and i am still texting him really stupid nasty stuff. Like scolding him and threatening all that shit. Then the next moment, i'll be like WTF WHY WHY WHY NOW I LOOK STUPID AGAIN. Usually he'd ignore my msges. Then that day we had an agreement, that if he's nice to me, i'll be nice. So he started replying. AND TODAY HIS REPLIES WERE FUCKED UP. I WENT CRAZIER. SO CRAZY I DELETED HIM OFF BBM AGAIN. THIS IS THE 100TH TIME OR SOMETHING. Seriously, something wrong with me up there. I always delete him off, tell myself that i'm never talking to him ever again, start sms-ing him after a few days and then after awhile add him back on BBM again. CYCLE KEEPS REPEATING. I PRAY HARD IT'LL BE THE LAST.

Been such an angry and sad girl I HATE IT!

I cannot remember how TRUE happiness feels anymore. (yeah a few posts back i said i'm happy cus i've a crush but that happiness and this is like totally different yknow?) I must know my happiness cannot be based on a man!!!!! But it's so hard, so hard to be happy alone. I really cant be alone!!!! It's not that i really am like ALONE, ive my friends and all but I FEEL INCOMPLETE AND FEEL THAT I CANNOT BE HAPPY WITHOUT A BOY. It's a BPD thing (What's BPD?). Need to talk to someone who can help me. Previously when i went for couselling i got better...so i hope it helps this time. I just need to stop thinking "it's not gonna work" cus it worked once and just make that phone call. IT'S SO HARD TO LEAD MY LIFE LIKE THAT. My friends have to worry about me all the time and they always go "yknow a lot of people care for you, we hate to see you like this" and i really like feel so sad cus I CAN'T HELP IT. :(

Garters

I really wish i had stick thin thighs!!!

Garters won't make you look trashy if you wear it with the right stuff! No one pulls it off better than Taylor Momsen - The Garter Girl ,of course.

I want to update this space everyday with a "What I'm Wearing" post but i lost my tripod stand. :( It's different now without a boyfee, no one would be willing to take pictures for me everyday. Lol.

Anyway, i got my garters from Bangkok. I don't know if it'll be popular among Singaporeans so i didn't bring 'em in to sell.

WHO WANTS GARTER BELTS + THIGH HIGH STOCKINGS? :)

Leopard

Ordered extra!

IN STOCK, NO WAITING TIME.

x1 Size 37 and x1 Size 38 (same as Charles & Keith's shoe size)

Selling at $72

Self-collection at the boutique only!

Email ohsofickle@gmail.com if you're keen!

Karaoke

I'm sitting here smiling at the screen. I feel happy today~~~ Plus, i got to see my crush. Haven't felt this way in a looooong time. Sure feels good. Plus it's the first time i like a guy who has completely no interest in me. Some challenge there. It's like i've to be the one chasing. I dont know if i can do it man....lol. Nvm about that.

So anyway i'm here with a bowl of Mac&Cheese in front of me.

(You can find it at most supermarkets eg. Cold Storage, Fairprice...)

I know, i know, i'm still having supper despite complaining about my body. What's new? Lol. Well, I won't be able to sleep well if i don't eat before i sleep. :( BAD HABIT! My thighs are touching each other now and i still can't be bothered to exercise. Too busy and lazy :( I want to start skipping! Like 10 mins everyday. Read somewhere that skipping's great exercise! Plus 10 min a day only... EASY PEASY! MUST. BUY. SKIPPING. ROPE.

Anyhow, today i had so much fun singing and dancing at KBox. The KBox at *scape's SO AWESOME. It's like KSuites but much cheaper!

Put a bottle of Chivas + heartbroken girls & boys =

Lol we were really dancing and jumping all over the place. ALCOHOL, ALCOHOL~~~

K and finally showing ya'll my cute nails! Did it last week when i was in BKK!

Not a design i thought of myself. Got the design from someone's Tumblr! I can't remember the URL cus i dont have a habit of bookmarking websites :( pfft.

Can't wait to do the next design i have in mind! BUT I NEED TO STOP SPENDING $ ON MY NAILS. NEED A SPONSOR~~I turned down so many nail salons last few months cus i wasn't like crazy over nails. BUT NOW I AM. SORTA. Soooo....anyone wna do an advert for your nail salon now? I can save $ and you can get good business - WIN WIN SITUATION. Hee hee.

Random

Am aware i made a mistake! It should be July instead of June!!

Btw, collection is up!

Click here to view the collection

Thank you x








Gosh....i need to come up with a good blog post soon!!!!!!!!

Been too busy....TOO BUSY!

Anyhow i'll be launching a new collection tomorrow (Monday) at 7pm! Did the photoshoot today. Man i look bad. Had a pretty bad night last night. Got toooo damn emotional over crappy issues. Issues of the heart. I feel sad that my ex boyfriend moved on faster than me. Kinda lame. Lol. I'm good now. Going out to watch Inception! Some people say it's damn good and some other people think it's the most boring movie ever. It's like two extremes. Am so tired but am still gonna watch it so it better keep me awake!

Bijou

Bijou! Donna's new poodle~~~

Happy Birthday Donna The Pony!

Love you much :)

Mani

Look what i found...




Soooo pretty but i don't think i can ever maintain such nails....plus it won't be cheap.


My fav has to be the Chanel, HOH and Vivienne Westwood one! Oh the MMM one also not bad :)

Tomorrow when i wake, i'm heading straight to the nail palour! Found the design i want online~~~ SUPER CUTE. WILL SHARE IT WITH YA'LL WHEN I'M DONE :)